This is not the first year I’ve dropped off a child at college and come home to an empty house, but I’m finding each year has its own unique joys and sorrows. This year proves to be different from the last in the fact that both of my children are now moving – putting several states between us all.
I have a mix of excitement and sadness. I am excited that they are both beginning great journeys. My son seems to have grown tremendously over this past year. As he enters his sophomore year, I am seeing an enthusiasm and determination to succeed. I am hopeful that this continues past the first month and well into the rest of his life. This is not something I have seen before at this level, so I am quite hopeful both scholastically and personally for him. I will miss him at the house, he is a great conversationalist.
My daughter is heading out on her own journey as well. She is heading down South for a graduate program. For this, I am excited, it is something she has talked about for a long time. She is driving down in a few days and will be “finding an apartment and settling in before classes start.” This is making me a bit crazy! She currently has no place to stay, does not know the area worth a stitch and does not have the kind of bank account that could afford her the luxury of waiting to find the most appropriate place for her needs. This is not the way I would have done it, or would like to see her do it. I will miss her dropping by because she’s hungry and likes my cooking.
One of the benefits both of my children have is the experience of my life. No matter how dismal a situation may be, I have always landed on my feet. I may have fallen down countless times, but somehow, and I’m not clear how, I have always fallen into a flower bed (maybe not roses, but even field flowers are better than manure). This is one confidence they both seem to have. I’m not entirely certain if I’m grateful for that, or if I’m upset because they rely on it, but in the end, it does provide even me a sense of comfort.
With this “landing on their feet” feeling, they are able to take risks. I am grateful for that as I see risks as the precursor to growth. It is difficult though when you see the path they are going, really believe it will have a bump or two, believe you see the bumps in the road that they don’t see yet, but stay quiet to let them discover the bump themselves. This is the toughest part for me of being a parent of adult children.